I know that this is a journey. I know that it's a struggle. Some times though, I wonder why I was chosen to struggle. It seems that I find one area in my life that I work on that becomes less of a struggle, only to realize that I need to work on another area. Maybe this is what life is, one struggle after another? It seems though that not everyone struggles so much.
I need to find my healthiness mojo again. I seem to have lost it somewhere in the last 6 months. Pete now gets up at 4:30 to be at the gym every morning by 5 so he can get to work on time after working out. I used to do that. But the thought of doing that now...I just can't seem to do it. I can't seem to motivate.
I've been trying to think back over the last 6 months about what helped me. The month that I put up a workout schedule on the closet door and tried to keep to it, I did well. The 2 week period that rewarded myself with a new headscarf for motorcycling if I went 10/14 days I did well. When I track my food I do better with eating less calories.
I keep thinking about the phrase "Fake it 'til you make it." Maybe I need to keep going and going until it becomes something that I get into again? Maybe I need to find something new to do at the gym to motivate me and excite me. I want to track my food, but I have a hard time with it after a couple of days.
I need a new plan.
I so appreciate the comments from my last post. I am trying to think of the NSVs and a way to turn this around.