Slightly Less Defeated

That's me.

I know that this is a journey.  I know that it's a struggle.  Some times though, I wonder why I was chosen to struggle.  It seems that I find one area in my life that I work on that becomes less of a struggle, only to realize that I need to work on another area.  Maybe this is what life is, one struggle after another?  It seems though that not everyone struggles so much. 

I need to find my healthiness mojo again.  I seem to have lost it somewhere in the last 6 months. Pete now gets up at 4:30 to be at the gym every morning by 5 so he can get to work on time after working out.  I used to do that.  But the thought of doing that now...I just can't seem to do it.  I can't seem to motivate. 

I've been trying to think back over the last 6 months about what helped me.  The month that I put up a workout schedule on the closet door and tried to keep to it, I did well.  The 2 week period that rewarded myself with a new headscarf for motorcycling if I went 10/14 days I did well.  When I track my food I do better with eating less calories.

I keep thinking about the phrase "Fake it 'til you make it."  Maybe I need to keep going and going until it becomes something that I get into again?  Maybe I need to find something new to do at the gym to motivate me and excite me.  I want to track my food, but I have a hard time with it after a couple of days.

I need a new plan.

I so appreciate the comments from my last post.  I am trying to think of the NSVs and a way to turn this around.