What I know:
- I currently weigh 224 pounds
- I'm not currently going to the gym
- Running is still awkward given my new body shape and anything less than running on that treadmill is frustrating.
- I'm afraid to go back to Body Pump because of the loss of muscle and change in my body.
- I'm eating more disordered meals and snacks.
- I'm having issues with insomnia again which cause an inability to get up early for the gym.
- I work from home most the time and wear stretchy clothes because none of my other clothes fit.
- No electronics after 9:30pm
- Take vitamins and minerals daily.
- 100 ounces of water daily.
- No carbonated drinks.
- 3 clean meals and 2 planned snacks
- Gym, 3 days a week.
My vitamins are on and off. I need to place them on my work desk so that they stare me in the face every morning and I take them more frequently.
Water. *sigh* Some days I can't get enough and some days I struggle. So I returned to some water additives to help. Pete is into juicing and sometimes I add some of the cucmber or fruit juices that he makes. Others, it's a natural ingredient crystal light with cane sugar/stevia or True Lime's BlackCherry Limeade.
Meals/Snacks are a struggle I'm fully willing to admit. Pete is down to about 160-165 and has stayed there for about 7-8 months. He works out enough and his metabolism is so high that he has been buying cookie dough, Oreos, ice cream, reeces PB cups and other crap. He eats and eats and doesn't gain. I will have a PB cup and a couple of cookies and it's all over for me. I need to stop. He is more than willing to not have the stuff in the house so that it's not tempting me, but I feel back and keep buying it for him. But it comes back to my CHOICES. I need to 'reset' my band and let the pouch above it shrink back down. So starting Sunday I'm going to drink Pete's Body by VI shakes for breakfast & lunch and then eat a clean meal of chicken/veg or salmon/veg for dinner for a week.
The gym. It's periods like now where it isn't my second home and I don't feel compfortable because I've gained weight that I struggle even going. My favorite instructor keeps telling me it's ok and I'll find my way back. It's people like her that make me love my local Y. Because I'm awkward running and scared of injuring myself in Body Pump, I've decided to branch out. I'v scheduled myself classes 3 days a week; Mondays is Water Execrise in the pool, Wednesdays is Standing Flow Stretching and Movement and Fridays I'll try Body Pump with a bar only, no weight.
That's the new plan.