I mean this seriously. I've noticed that I'm a bit compulsive when I set goals that others can see/know about. Like my goal to be 220 or less when I had my surgery in March. I knew that they would weigh me the day of surgery and therefore I really really tried to get there, to the point of working out a couple of hours a day.
I joined the Holiday Challenge at the Y. Weighed in 11/26/12 and had to weigh in by today to see if I got the shirt. I haven't been working out, but I managed to lose 5 pounds in 6 weeks (most of it in the last week). I got the shirt.
But today? Today I feel like I've indulged and there is no goal or no one watching.
For breakfast I 6 ounces of Greek yogurt, 1/2 cup berries with it.
For lunch I had 1 cup tomato soup with 1/2 english muffin with a piece of low fat cheese on it.
Then I had 3 mini peanutbutter cups.
This afternoon I had about 10 small pieces of licorice.
Then I had a Special K pastry Crisp.
Then I had about 3/4 cup cucumbers/red pepper strips with about 3 ounces of hummus.
My mind thinks it's been eating all day long. But when I log it in like that it's not bad. Sure I could have chosen better with the peanut butter cups and the licorice. But I followed up with fresh veg knowing that the sugar wasn't cutting it. And it's not that terribly indulgent. But I feel like it is.
I think I feel like that because I was very determined and limited my intake the last week to meals and very few snacks. That is to say, my mind plays a trick in that it thinks I was better with eating last week when really it just may be that I was so limiting last week and I can't sustain that, so I start eating more to compensate.
It's a mind game. Really it is. I think some of it is about control and some is about meeting goals. But it's definitely something I need to work on to be truly healthy. It's ok to have snacks and indulge as long as it's not way out of balance from what I should be eating. It's ok to try to stick to limited eating, but it needs to be be done in a healthy way. Those are the things I need to keep working on.