Progress to surgery:
I have 1 phone call through my insurance to complete and about 4-5 pounds to lose. Once those two things occur, I can schedule surgery.
As I was talking with the nurse from the insurance company yesterday I realized that going through this process has brought some unintended results. The biggest one is that I am more aware of why I might be eating something.
I pretty much read her my blog post from yesterday. When I did it, I realized that I do it more often than I thought and that it might be starting to become routine. For example, Sunday I went to the grocery store to pick up some things for dinner. And as I rolled my cart past the produce I decided that I needed cake. It was a long weekend and I struggled through some feelings and awkward situations. I didn't eat in those situations and I was proud of that. But for some reason I decided, while standing next to the bananas and the mangoes, that I needed cake. Oh, I DO remember why I decided this. Pete and I had been to a birthday party the night before and we had to leave before cake was served. So see, I needed cake.
But not really. I left the bananas and the mangoes and headed to the bakery. When I got to the cake cooler I stopped the cart and looked. There were sheet cakes, cupcakes, slices of cake. White cake, chocolate cake, brownies, marbled cake, white frosting, chocolate frosting...red velvet with cream cheese. I must have circled that cake cooler about 4 times. Each time deciding that I'd get something, then telling myself that I get something else. Finally I stopped and said to myself, "I don't REALLY need cake." and I left.
I never gave it a second thought. I really thought about the cake. Why I wanted the cake. And in the end I had decided that I did not need cake to survive. I went home and make lower calorie chicken enchiladas and ate dinner with Pete when he got home. No cake needed.
I'm liking that I think before I eat. Maybe I'll never get to the point where food isn't an issue, but I'm gaining knowledge to help me be more successful.