My immediate goal: 228 pounds by 1/1/12.
I met with the bariatric center yesterday. Dr. July at Unity is very nice and a no nonsense kind of person. She tells you like it is and I like that. We talked for quite some time about my progress, my apnea and weight. I realized that at my largest I likely weight somewhere between 275-285. I never want to see that again. When she asked me what my goal was in all of this I didn't hesitate. I want to be a healthy me with less joint pain, less swelling in my ankles, more energy, better about to control what I eat to keep me a healthy adult for as long as I can.
For me, this isn't about how I look right now. I understand that it's part of it and a huge part for women. But for right now I want to be healthy. I want to have energy to do things again. I want to feel good in my body.
So she qualified me for surgery. I've completed most of the process already. The last 3 things are: see the nutritionist, have a psych eval completed and lose 12 pounds.
I'm not taking this lightly. It's a huge decision and yesterday while waiting for her in the office I asked myself if this is really what I wanted to do. My answer was yes. I want to like food, but not have it control me. I feel a bit energized again. I feel a bit like I have a purpose, a goal to work for.