Took my trusty CPAP home last night after getting distilled water for the humidifier portion. I moved things around on my bedside table and set it up. I was a bit disappointed because I felt as though I was in a hospital with the tubing and machine and something over my face.
Pete and I got caught up on Sons of Anarchy while cuddling in bed. Then it was time. I had to put the mask on and try to sleep. The machine operates at a lower force of air for 20 minutes to give you a chance to fall asleep. My thought was to read my Nook a little to relax and then go to sleep. Only I can't put my glasses on over the mask. I then thought about reading the Nook with large print without my glasses, but the mask separates your eyes so they can't focus right in front of your head.
So I just laid down and tried to sleep.
It was the worst night of sleep in a long time. Although my eyes were closed and I was "sleeping", I don't think I ever got into REM. At some point I woke up and took the mask off. When I think about it, my mouth was dry when I did that and I think I may have been mouth breathing. It not only negates the CPAP, but it works against it. After I took the mask off I remember nothing until Nico woke me up for breakfast at 6. My 5am alarm must have went off, but I have no memory of shutting it off.
I got up and fed him his kibble and made myself some toast. Pete came home from the gym and I told him I needed to lay down. The next thing I knew it was 9am and I was late for work. I have a killer headache, I'm tired as hell. I feel crappy. Worst of all I dread bedtime. I know it's going to take some time to get used to, but this is hard. Really hard.