I think I've made it through to the other side. I think that the combination of the life stressors and the PMS, (which is like when stars collide) meant that life was just way too overwhelming.
I have my sleep study scheduled for 10/23/11. I have to be there at 8pm to get started. If they don't get the data that they need overnight, they require that you stay the following day and take 5-2 hour naps for them. I keep thinking...so they want me to sleep for 8 hours then get up and sleep for another 10 hours? I' so nervous that I won't sleep so the doctor gave me Ambien to try for that night. And that makes me even more nervous because of the crazy things that I read about people doing on that med. At least there will be someone to watch me...
I'm both fearful that I have sleep apnea (because it's a serious diagnosis) and that I don't have it. It's like I'm balancing on a line and I could fall either way. Another reason why I feel like I'm in limbo right now.
As for the healthiness journey...I think it's on pause. That's not to say that I don't think about it. I limit my portions and I try to eat healthy with veggies, fruit and whole grains. But I'm not going all out and I haven't returned to the gym. I do hover take Nico for walks almost every night so I'm getting 1-2 miles of walking in most days. My goal is to get the sleep study done and return to the gym to start up something by 11/1/11.
I'm getting better about meal planning/grocery buying. I've been using this free printable planner from Vertex to help me. I sit down each Saturday or Sunday and plan out a weeks worth of meals from what I have on hand. Then I use the grocery list to add what I need. It's cut down on waste and I feel much more organized. I keep a few of these in the household bills binder that I made after seeing it on Echos of Laughter organizing blog. When I'm done making my list and shopping, then I pull it out and hang it on the front of the fridge so Pete knows what's on the list and can help.