Sunday I talked about my worst fear. And like I said, it's not even really my worst fear. My worst fear, the one that instantly brings tears to my eyes, is that something happens to Pete. I am so tied to him in every way that the thought of not having him instantly brings me to tears. I don't think about that very often.
My worst fear right now?
I won't qualify for gastric band. Either the program or my insurance won't qualify me. I'm anxious and nervous and left kind of in limbo for right now. I almost feel like this is my last chance to get some of this weight off and get truly healthy.
So when I whispered this to Pete and took a deep breath in...and he replied that we'd deal with it then, it was the best answer ever. The most calming supportive answer. The answer that I needed to hear.