Tuesday, September 03, 2013

We Are Women Who Try

So um, over the long weekend, this happened:

One half marathon registration?  Check.
Scared shitless?  Check.
Did it to show Pete that I could really hit the submit button?  Check.
Signed up on the 29th so I could get a free shirt from this year? Check.
Forgot about it 1 hour after I signed up? Check.

Then, this happened:

I attended the expo for this year's race.  Then I sent the following text to Pete:  "Holy Shit, I signed up to run 13.1 miles in less than 3.5 hours."  He replied that I needed to breathe and believe.

And you know what?  He's right.  I can do this.  I can accomplish this goal if I put my mind to it.  I'm worried that I'll be bumped off the course by the hay wagon with the "not good enough" people.  Shhh...don't tell anyone...but even if that happens, it's ok.  You know why?

I TRIED.

Because not trying?  That gets me nowhere in life and it took me a long time to realize it.  It took me a lot of lost opportunities to realize that I could have gone a different direction, accomplished something or met someone.  Not trying isn't an option anymore.

Women Rock Minnesota is a pretty new race.  This was only the second year it was held here.  I think it attracted me partly because it's only females running.  Not that women are inferior to men, but it's less scary (to me) to be running against other women.  I think it's the same thing as a female only gym.  It's not a perfect body completion while you're working out.

This is the race I've been wanting to run.  This is the race I've been dreaming of.  This is the one that I want to finish.  I can do it, right?

PS.  I've never run in a race, just on my own.  I currently can't even sit up without help from my arms because the mastectomy reconstruction took blood supply from my bottom ab muscles.  But I can do this.  I can.

Thursday, August 29, 2013

Starting Over

My action plan?  It's allowing me to earn some dollars for a TV.  But, it's not been that push to eat better and get to the gym that I hoped it would be. 

I stepped on the scale the other day and I was 204.  I cried.

I know in my head what I need to do to lose the weight, but can't seem to get to the point where it's put into motion.  I'm addicted to chocolate and sweets.  I've not been drinking as much water as I should.  I eat crappy food because it's easy or convenient or in my cupboard. 

I sit in the living room or bedroom, watch TV or read or internet or whatever.  I don't exercise or walk or do much.  I know that my back and chest are screaming in pain because the muscles aren't supporting the areas.  I know that I'd be more comfortable if I was exercising and I'd sleep better.

My mind goes in various directions in the day.  I have great plans, but they never come to fruition because I can't get my ass up and do them.  I wander the house and see things to be done, but it's easier to just sit.

I know that I need to just start.  That the first week or two will be difficult, but I just need to do it.

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

3 Tips to Lose Weight

There are lots of times that I have people ask how I lost weight.  While I tell them what I did, I'd rather be giving them general ideas to try for themselves.  My path to losing weight is just that - my path.  What worked for me, isn't going to work for someone else.  I'd rather that they listen to my tips, ideas and choices and figure out the their path. 

I know, I know!  Everyone wants the quick fix, the easy track or the sure thing.  But the truth is that it's like a unicorn and doesn't exist, except in our imaginations.  The diets may result in loss, but it returns as soon as you return to your normal eating.  The structured weight loss clinics/plans, again they work while you're involved, but stop when you're not involved.  The point here is that you need to learn what works for you and make it your life.  Not a couple of months here and there, your lifestyle for good.

So here are my top three tips:


Get rid of your dinner plates.  You can keep one or two for serving platters, but pack the rest away.  Use that salad plate as your sinner plate.  You are forced to take smaller portions and therefore eat less.  Your brain is tricked into thinking that it's full because you've cleaned your plate.


Find your water bottle.  Sounds strange, but I bought a lot of bottles that were trendy and cute, but didn't work for me.  I don't like aluminum bottles because I like seeing what's inside and after a while they seem to take on the taste of whatever was put in them.  I didn't like the bottles with screw on caps because it was hard to get them off while exercising; not to mention I always wore more water than I drank with the large bottle opening.

As for the contents:  water.  Fill up your bottles with water and drink.  I drink at least 3 of these a day for a total of 75 ounces, along with any other liquids I drink.  I have 4 of these bottles and I keep 2 in the fridge with cold water.  Sometimes I use room temp water because cold water is just too cold.  In the summer especially, I add fresh fruit juice to it.  I take berries, melon or even veggies and put them in the blender/food processor and puree.  Then I let them drain through a fine colander to get out the solids and seeds.  I keep these in small containers in the fridge and add a bit when I need flavoring.


Shop outside.  And by this I mean shop the outside aisles of the grocery store.  Try spending 30% of your budget in the produce section.  Eat what's in season to maximize your spending.  Spend 25% of your budget in lean proteins:  chicken, fish, pork and turkey.  It's fine to add in some beef every week, but the majority of your meals should be lean protein.  30% should be spent in the dairy section; cheeses, greek yogurt, lowfat milk, and eggs.  10% should be spent in the frozen aisles for frozen veg and fruit when not in season.  The other 5%, spend in aisles for grains, legumes and rice.  this my example of how I try to shop most times.  It varies according to what I might be out of or need.

Stop with the pre-packaged, quick, processed foods.  If you are craving cookies, make them yourself.  This accomplishes a couple of things:  first it allows you to know just what is in the recipe you're eating and you can modify it if you want to fit your eating, it makes you work for your food so you know you really want to eat it by putting in the effort to make it and it's not an instant gratification to pull something from a box and eat it.  All good things when trying to lose weight, not to mention get healthier.

It's weigh in Wednesday.  But here's the deal...I'm not going to weigh myself until next week.  Pete is going to help me get started back at the gym and for now, that scale is off limits to avoid more frustration.

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

???; Auntie's Day In with Alison

It's no secret, I love my nieces and nephews.  I love that Pete came with a niece and nephew also.  It started out with Alison, my sister's daughter.  I used to borrow her a lot when she was a baby and toddler.  It migrated to me taking Alison and her brother Grant each out for a day with me in the summer to do whatever they wanted.  Auntie's Day Out.  Love it.

This summer?  What, you mean there was a summer?  I totally feel like I missed out on any summer with planning for surgery, having surgery and recovering.  So it's the week before school starts around here and we haven't done Auntie's Day Out.

I talked to Alison, who is now 11, and told her that I still don't do a whole lot and sometimes I nap.  I offered to just have her come to my house for the day and hang out with me.  She was game.  At this point, I'm not sure if she's excited to spend time with me or is only putting up with me so she can spend time with Nico.  Either way, we'll take it.

I planned on going to the craft tore for a project, but that never happened.  Honestly, we stopped at the grocery for lunch items (grilled cheese), dinner items (ham, mac & cheese and corn) and wet home.  I was tired and sore already.

We (and by we, I mean me) made lunch.  Grilled cheese for Alison, grilled cheese & tomato for me) and cleaned up.  We set ourselves up in my bed, where Alison watched a 90 minute movie and I slept.  We got up and baked some cookie dough we bought and then cut veggies to make refrigerator pickles.  By that time it was dinner which we (again, me) cooked and ate.  Then it was time to take Alison home.

I came home at 7:30 and Pete was right behind me.  We chatted and he left to go take shake mix to a client and I headed to bed. 

Auntie's Day In totally wore me out.

Monday, August 26, 2013

204; Action Plan Monday

Wednesday: 7 points
Thursday: 7 points
Friday: 0 - I didn't track so no points
Saturday: 8 points
Sunday: 5 points

Goal:  $150
Total Points/Dollars: $27


I think what I quickly discovered is that I need a purpose in life.  And while recovering, I had no purpose.  I wasn't working with timelines and to do lists and decisions to be made on a daily basis.  I wasn't cooking/baking for Pete and I which gives me a sense of being a wife and gives me a sense of making people in my life happy.  I wasn't cleaning the house or playing with the dog which makes me feel adult and a homeowner.  My purpose was to recover and get better, but it was all about me, no deadlines and not helping anyone else.

This action plan, gives me back a sense of purpose before I go back to work.  It prompts me to do things around the house like shopping, cooking, cleaning, getting out and going to the gym.  It forces me out of my little cocoon and back into what makes me feel good.