I won't bore you with the details, but the man cold jumped ship to the wife. So I've been spending my mornings trying to furiously work for a few hours so that I can spend my afternoons coughing up a lung while trying to nap. Oh, and binge watching Grey's Anatomy via Netflix.
None of this has to do with losing weight, eating better or anything. Other than all I want to do is drink ginger ale because the carbonation seems to soothe my sore throat. I can't walk up the stairs without huffing, puffing and depositing my lung on the fifth stair. And my idea of working out is how my abs tighten when I cough.
So, the gym is a no go currently.
And healthy eating? Well lets just say that cooking has been Pete's job. And Monday night he served up "Hotdog and Baked Bean Lasagna with Pepper Jack Cheese and Spicy BBQ Sauce.
Why are you laughing? I'm dead serious. He sandwiched all that in between lasagna noodles. He was proud and I ate it. 2 nights in a row.
Yesterday seemed to be a corner in the illness front. My chest loosened up and it's not a dry hacking cough, it's productive (as my doctor says). And my head seems to be decongesting as well, as evidenced by the amount of lotion tissues I've used this morning.
And I actually don't mind "cooking" because I took out 1/2 pound of lean ground lamb that I'm going to mix with i diced potato, a couple of carrots, some peas and stock to make a shepard (but not Derek Shepard. See what I did there?) pie, minus the mashed tators on top. Or maybe I'll use the sweet potato in the mixture and microwave the white potato and make fast mashed tators for Pete...
Anyway, I hope to be back at it by Monday.
Thursday, March 13, 2014
Thursday, March 06, 2014
The Yoga Pants Did It
Where I work, we have to dress up. I'm not talking about suits or anything, but we can't wear jeans (other than Fridays), no sweatshirts, shorts, yoga pants... We are a unit that doesn't regularly meet with clients. For the most part. there is one person assigned to meet with clients in the office each day and that person should dress appropriately to do so. The rest of us either work from home or hibernate behind computers in our offices for work.
For years I've worked to get all of us to be able to wear jeans in the office. We wear badges to get between floors so we are identified as employees. But I'm met with a NO response each time. A little over a year ago, I realized that we are the only unit on our campus of 3 buildings that cannot regularly wear jeans. And yet some people seem to wear jeans regularly and not get called on it.
Over the years, while fighting for jeans, my co-workers would comment that I should be fighting for sweatpants, not jeans. I laughed and commented how my jeans were comfortable and I'd be ok with those and a nice top/sweater and jewelry to dress it up. I maintained that my jeans were as comfortable as my sweatpants.
Then I had surgery. Oh my how those yoga pants were AWESOME! And since I never really went back into the office and started working from home after surgery, I never went back to my work clothes. So imagine my surprise when I tried on my work clothes upon having to go into the office and they didn't fit. I was crushed about the weight gain and I've documented this.
So I've tried several things to get back to my healthy journey. But in that time, I keep wearing my yoga pants. And I'm starting to think that they are my downfall. I can't help but wonder if my weight gain wouldn't have gotten so out of control if I was wearing regular work pants or jeans on a regular basis and realize that they were getting tighter and tighter. Yoga pants just keep stretching and stretching.
So I've decided that my yoga pants are to blame for my weight gain...
This post is tongue in cheek...kind of.
For years I've worked to get all of us to be able to wear jeans in the office. We wear badges to get between floors so we are identified as employees. But I'm met with a NO response each time. A little over a year ago, I realized that we are the only unit on our campus of 3 buildings that cannot regularly wear jeans. And yet some people seem to wear jeans regularly and not get called on it.
Over the years, while fighting for jeans, my co-workers would comment that I should be fighting for sweatpants, not jeans. I laughed and commented how my jeans were comfortable and I'd be ok with those and a nice top/sweater and jewelry to dress it up. I maintained that my jeans were as comfortable as my sweatpants.
Then I had surgery. Oh my how those yoga pants were AWESOME! And since I never really went back into the office and started working from home after surgery, I never went back to my work clothes. So imagine my surprise when I tried on my work clothes upon having to go into the office and they didn't fit. I was crushed about the weight gain and I've documented this.
So I've tried several things to get back to my healthy journey. But in that time, I keep wearing my yoga pants. And I'm starting to think that they are my downfall. I can't help but wonder if my weight gain wouldn't have gotten so out of control if I was wearing regular work pants or jeans on a regular basis and realize that they were getting tighter and tighter. Yoga pants just keep stretching and stretching.
So I've decided that my yoga pants are to blame for my weight gain...
This post is tongue in cheek...kind of.
Wednesday, March 05, 2014
Ash Wednesday/The 40 Days of Lent
It's no secret, I often use the pressure of Lent to give up food things or try to be healthier. I believe that this is ok and I give myself permission to do so, knowing that a healthier me is a better me and that the spirit of Lent is represented in my struggle.
This year, my goal is to be more mindful of why I'm eating. Working from home, I have a whole kitchen at my disposal all. the. time. It's not like I can only bring my breakfast & lunch and I'm out of food. Well, I suppose I could if I locked myself in my extra bedroom/office. But that would mean that Pete would have to lock me inside from the outside. And that would be weird because I'd have no potty. I digress...
I created a little note in my phone, titled...Lent. (original!) My plan is that aside from meals, if I'm going to eat a 'snack', I need to log the time and what I'm feeling and if I still choose to snack. I need to be more mindful about what I'm snacking on and my feelings at the time. Snacking has been an issue for me in the past and continues to be. This strategy really helped me in the days leading up to surgery and after surgery.
It's the little things. The little things that add up to big things. Big changes and goals and dreams.
This year, my goal is to be more mindful of why I'm eating. Working from home, I have a whole kitchen at my disposal all. the. time. It's not like I can only bring my breakfast & lunch and I'm out of food. Well, I suppose I could if I locked myself in my extra bedroom/office. But that would mean that Pete would have to lock me inside from the outside. And that would be weird because I'd have no potty. I digress...
I created a little note in my phone, titled...Lent. (original!) My plan is that aside from meals, if I'm going to eat a 'snack', I need to log the time and what I'm feeling and if I still choose to snack. I need to be more mindful about what I'm snacking on and my feelings at the time. Snacking has been an issue for me in the past and continues to be. This strategy really helped me in the days leading up to surgery and after surgery.
It's the little things. The little things that add up to big things. Big changes and goals and dreams.
Tuesday, March 04, 2014
The Plan and Goals
When I detailed my plan last week I forgot to talk about a big part of it. Blogging.
Blogging and reading blogs is such a powerful motivator for me. I think that I tend to hibernate when things are going right and that's when I most need to reach out. I need to document the struggles that I have and go back to read them so I can see I am powerful and strong. I need to read the bloggers who motivated me before and find new ones to share my current struggles.
So along with the plan from last week, I plan on blogging regularly again.
Goals are important. Really important. I reached out Fabulous Check Gets Fit after seeing her posts on her Instagram. She reminded me that setting small goals to get that sense of accomplishment is important. We all want to feel like we are making accomplishments and this is one way to do that.
My goal is to lose 20 pounds. I honestly don't think that it will take more than about 6 months to do that once I start execising regularly and slowly returning to my healthier eating. I hope that the gym will start helping me with body image too and regaining the muscle that I've lost.
Along with goal setting, I personally feel like it should be connected to a reward. Small, medium or large, just not food related. I used to put money on the fridge that I could spend on clothes or pick out a new pan to cook with or more motorcycle riding gear. My goal for getting to under 200 was my ring tattoo for Pete. And I look at that infinity symbol and heart and rememeber that I CAN DO THIS.
So my goal for losing 20 pounds is another tattoo. In fact two of them. My fake nipple tattoos to finsh of my reconectruction. I have the name of the tattoo artist who comes highly recommended and the money set aside to get them done. That's my goal.
Blogging and reading blogs is such a powerful motivator for me. I think that I tend to hibernate when things are going right and that's when I most need to reach out. I need to document the struggles that I have and go back to read them so I can see I am powerful and strong. I need to read the bloggers who motivated me before and find new ones to share my current struggles.
So along with the plan from last week, I plan on blogging regularly again.
Goals are important. Really important. I reached out Fabulous Check Gets Fit after seeing her posts on her Instagram. She reminded me that setting small goals to get that sense of accomplishment is important. We all want to feel like we are making accomplishments and this is one way to do that.
My goal is to lose 20 pounds. I honestly don't think that it will take more than about 6 months to do that once I start execising regularly and slowly returning to my healthier eating. I hope that the gym will start helping me with body image too and regaining the muscle that I've lost.
Along with goal setting, I personally feel like it should be connected to a reward. Small, medium or large, just not food related. I used to put money on the fridge that I could spend on clothes or pick out a new pan to cook with or more motorcycle riding gear. My goal for getting to under 200 was my ring tattoo for Pete. And I look at that infinity symbol and heart and rememeber that I CAN DO THIS.
So my goal for losing 20 pounds is another tattoo. In fact two of them. My fake nipple tattoos to finsh of my reconectruction. I have the name of the tattoo artist who comes highly recommended and the money set aside to get them done. That's my goal.
Thursday, February 27, 2014
The Plan (version 2, or 200)
So I've posted a few times previously about a plan or action plan. I have a new version. A restart.
What I know:
My vitamins are on and off. I need to place them on my work desk so that they stare me in the face every morning and I take them more frequently.
Water. *sigh* Some days I can't get enough and some days I struggle. So I returned to some water additives to help. Pete is into juicing and sometimes I add some of the cucmber or fruit juices that he makes. Others, it's a natural ingredient crystal light with cane sugar/stevia or True Lime's BlackCherry Limeade.
Meals/Snacks are a struggle I'm fully willing to admit. Pete is down to about 160-165 and has stayed there for about 7-8 months. He works out enough and his metabolism is so high that he has been buying cookie dough, Oreos, ice cream, reeces PB cups and other crap. He eats and eats and doesn't gain. I will have a PB cup and a couple of cookies and it's all over for me. I need to stop. He is more than willing to not have the stuff in the house so that it's not tempting me, but I feel back and keep buying it for him. But it comes back to my CHOICES. I need to 'reset' my band and let the pouch above it shrink back down. So starting Sunday I'm going to drink Pete's Body by VI shakes for breakfast & lunch and then eat a clean meal of chicken/veg or salmon/veg for dinner for a week.
The gym. It's periods like now where it isn't my second home and I don't feel compfortable because I've gained weight that I struggle even going. My favorite instructor keeps telling me it's ok and I'll find my way back. It's people like her that make me love my local Y. Because I'm awkward running and scared of injuring myself in Body Pump, I've decided to branch out. I'v scheduled myself classes 3 days a week; Mondays is Water Execrise in the pool, Wednesdays is Standing Flow Stretching and Movement and Fridays I'll try Body Pump with a bar only, no weight.
That's the new plan.
What I know:
- I currently weigh 224 pounds
- I'm not currently going to the gym
- Running is still awkward given my new body shape and anything less than running on that treadmill is frustrating.
- I'm afraid to go back to Body Pump because of the loss of muscle and change in my body.
- I'm eating more disordered meals and snacks.
- I'm having issues with insomnia again which cause an inability to get up early for the gym.
- I work from home most the time and wear stretchy clothes because none of my other clothes fit.
- No electronics after 9:30pm
- Take vitamins and minerals daily.
- 100 ounces of water daily.
- No carbonated drinks.
- 3 clean meals and 2 planned snacks
- Gym, 3 days a week.
My vitamins are on and off. I need to place them on my work desk so that they stare me in the face every morning and I take them more frequently.
Water. *sigh* Some days I can't get enough and some days I struggle. So I returned to some water additives to help. Pete is into juicing and sometimes I add some of the cucmber or fruit juices that he makes. Others, it's a natural ingredient crystal light with cane sugar/stevia or True Lime's BlackCherry Limeade.
Meals/Snacks are a struggle I'm fully willing to admit. Pete is down to about 160-165 and has stayed there for about 7-8 months. He works out enough and his metabolism is so high that he has been buying cookie dough, Oreos, ice cream, reeces PB cups and other crap. He eats and eats and doesn't gain. I will have a PB cup and a couple of cookies and it's all over for me. I need to stop. He is more than willing to not have the stuff in the house so that it's not tempting me, but I feel back and keep buying it for him. But it comes back to my CHOICES. I need to 'reset' my band and let the pouch above it shrink back down. So starting Sunday I'm going to drink Pete's Body by VI shakes for breakfast & lunch and then eat a clean meal of chicken/veg or salmon/veg for dinner for a week.
The gym. It's periods like now where it isn't my second home and I don't feel compfortable because I've gained weight that I struggle even going. My favorite instructor keeps telling me it's ok and I'll find my way back. It's people like her that make me love my local Y. Because I'm awkward running and scared of injuring myself in Body Pump, I've decided to branch out. I'v scheduled myself classes 3 days a week; Mondays is Water Execrise in the pool, Wednesdays is Standing Flow Stretching and Movement and Fridays I'll try Body Pump with a bar only, no weight.
That's the new plan.
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