Monday, April 05, 2010

It's about the weight but not about the weight

Saturday was our Easter celebration. I think I made good food choices. I had 2 helpings of salad with veggies and very little dressing. I had ham, very little potatoes, asparagus and a bite of bread. I was disappointed in my desserts and the calories I had saved so I could eat them. I was disappointed. Strange feeling for me.

Yesterday the gym was closed and I was almost out of sorts. I didn't know what to do with myself. Not only did working out burn calories, but it takes up a good chunk of my day. And I didn't know what to do with myself. It makes me think that this journey is about the weight, but it's about everything other than the weight too.

I tried to walk on the treadmill at home. Tried. But I was the only one keeping me accountable and I'm not a good motivator right now. That makes me sad.

I did keep myself busy all morning and early afternoon. Working on cleaning, running around the house. Then Pete and I went to dinner with his family. And I TALKED myself into believing that I DESERVED a high carb, high fat meal. I again ate 2 servings of salad and only ate half my meal. But I ate it.

I didn't deserve that meal. Because here I am 24 hours later at home feeling yucky all day. I deserve good food that feeds my body and makes me feel good. I deserve food that not only tastes good, but leaves me feeling good.

I need to make this about the other stuff rather than the weight.


  1. I totally understand where you are coming from. It's really hard for me to exercise on my own because I have 0 motivation, therefore gyms and other exercise machines do me no good at all.

    Which is why I'm so impressed with people like you who do workout.

    What I found does work, a Pilates DVD. The reason lies with the instructor, I need the encouragement which she provides.

    As far as food goes, you would be surprised just by taking the sugar out of your diet what a difference that makes. I've lost the craving for sweets and what I love to snack on is fruit. I feel my body responds to it and I don't get that ugggg feeling.

    Now if you want to kick me off of your blog, I'll leave. I sorta invited myself so sorry if I'm bugging you.

    Good luck, I think you are doing great by the way, I love the fact that you ride a Harley! I ride a scooter, does that count?

  2. I'm glad you're here! Thanks for the comments. I scooter counts for anything - it's the same feeling of riding, right?

  3. I agree with Saimi about cutting out the sugar. I haven't been doing it for long and have already noticed a difference in not just how I look, but how I feel too. When I do have something with sugar in it, I have something really good instead of something meh (like cheap chocolate).

    For me, my exercise motivator is my dogs. They like walking and I started setting alarms for when I take them for walks. They know about what time that alarm goes off and are PIAs until I take them