Last week, I thought a lot about where I am and where I want to be. I thought about how mad I was at myself for getting to this point. I thought about how it's different trying to live like this again because I know the difference of being healthier.
Let me say that again. Before, weighed more and ate horrible and although I wished I was healthier, I was okay to a certain point, living like that because I didn't know any better. Now I know how awesome to feels to be in great shape. I know how euphoric it can be to exercise hard and see results. I know how much more energy I had when I ate better. I know the difference.
But, it occurs to me that I am somewhat like an alcoholic, only with food. I have lived so long with the habits that I developed as an unhealthy young adult and adult, that the easiest thing for me to do in times of stress, hurt, anger, upset...is to return to them. It's familiar and easy and calming.
But I know better. I know much better. And when you know better, you should be doing better.
So today, and only today, I plan to: choose to eat better, choose to move more, choose to destress when needed. Tomorrow is another day and another chance to make good choices. One day at a time.