My month of tracking workouts and weight went ok. 238 on the first of March and 235 today. But I can feel stronger, better muscles.
What I realized is that I'm no Superwoman.
I can go and go and go but at some point I need to stop and listen to my body and my mind. By yesterday both of them were screaming at me to listen. I think they've been talking to me all week, but I wasn't listening.
I'm reminded of this non-Superwoman complex a couple of times a year. You'd think that by now I'd be able to hear myself, but somewhere along the way I lose touch with the inner me. It starts of small, I add one or two things to my schedule. Then work or home life gets complicated. Then I challenge myself to workout 6 days a week. And I balance it all. But there comes a day where the cherry on top of my life-sundae slides off the ice cream and the whole sundae topples over.
This week I struggled with a migraine all week. It wasn't always full blown, but it was always there, threatening to strangle the right side of my head in pain. I wasn't sleeping well because of the migraine and stress I suppose. And at this point it becomes a cyclical thing. The migraine was likely a stress thing. I can't sleep well because of it. I can't work out because the migraine becomes worse. The stress is still there because I can't exercise it away. Therefore the migraine stays.
By yesterday afternoon I had pretty much had it. I told Pete I had to go to the gym. He told me that I needed to listen to my body. And as lame as I felt, I realized that he was right. I was ignoring what my mind and body were telling me. And the more I ignored, the more it screamed.
So I listened. I relaxed without feeling guilty about it. I slept in (if 6:30 can be called sleeping in) and skipped the gym. It's not the end of the world. It's not a bad thing. It's something that I need to accept in my journey. And the bottom line is that this doesn't stop my journey. I have the opportunity all day, every day, to make choices that lead me to where I want to be. A pit stop along the way is not a derailment of the path, it's mearly a stop to regroup.