235 - I'm No Superwoman

My month of tracking workouts and weight went ok.  238 on the first of March and 235 today.  But I can feel stronger, better muscles. 

What I realized is that I'm no Superwoman.

I can go and go and go but at some point I need to stop and listen to my body and my mind.  By yesterday both of them were screaming at me to listen.  I think they've been talking to me all week, but I wasn't listening.

I'm reminded of this non-Superwoman complex a couple of times a year.  You'd think that by now I'd be able to hear myself, but somewhere along the way I lose touch with the inner me.  It starts of small, I add one or two things to my schedule.  Then work or home life gets complicated.  Then I challenge myself to workout 6 days a week.  And I balance it all.  But there comes a day where the cherry on top of my life-sundae slides off the ice cream and the whole sundae topples over.

This week I struggled with a migraine all week.  It wasn't always full blown, but it was always there, threatening to strangle the right side of my head in pain.  I wasn't sleeping well because of the migraine and stress I suppose.  And at this point it becomes a cyclical thing.  The migraine was likely a stress thing.  I can't sleep well because of it.  I can't work out because the migraine becomes worse.  The stress is still there because I can't exercise it away.  Therefore the migraine stays.

By yesterday afternoon I had pretty much had it.  I told Pete I had to go to the gym.  He told me that I needed to listen to my body.  And as lame as I felt, I realized that he was right.  I was ignoring what my mind and body were telling me.  And the more I ignored, the more it screamed. 

So I listened.  I relaxed without feeling guilty about it.  I slept in (if 6:30 can be called sleeping in) and skipped the gym.  It's not the end of the world.  It's not a bad thing.  It's something that I need to accept in my journey.  And the bottom line is that this doesn't stop my journey.  I have the opportunity all day, every day, to make choices that lead me to where I want to be.  A pit stop along the way is not a derailment of the path, it's mearly a stop to regroup.