First, I won that holiday challenge. Not only did I not gain weight over the holidays, but I lost 3 pounds. I was working out with the weight routine 2 days a week and cardio 3-4 days a week. I indulged over the holidays, but I didn't over indulge.
But it got me to thinking, why am I doing this to myself. If I can maintain my weight why I am doing this? How did I get this way in the first place. If I have the ability to maintain, why did I gain previously?
Basically I had a morning of self doubt. I had a morning that was hard to get up because I haven't been doing it because I've been sick. I had a morning that was hard to work out because I hadn't been doing it. And it was just a hard week.
So in these moments I have to remind myself that I am doing this for me. Not for a tshirt or any other reason. I am doing this so that I am healthier and live longer and because I can do it.