Many things to say...

It was a hard day on Tuesday. P was having rough times with friends.

One friend (who's really an old ex) was going to loan us things for camping. However, when he got to her house, she wasn't there. He called and she told him the things were outside and he should leave $500 in the mailbox. Uh....no. He called me when he left her house and I don't know that I've ever seen him so mad. I don't like the push-pull emotional rollercoaster she has him on and wish that he would just cut ties.

The other friend, his best friend, is going through hard times. He is struggling with the anniversary of the loss of a parent. P talked to him for over an hour on Tuesday night. When he came back from his walk, I was sleeping and he woke me up. He told me that he had been talking to his friend and asking him if he had someone hear him to talk to/help him out. He said no. Then P asked if he had a girlfriend to lean on and he said no. P pulled out a rose from the gas station and told me how he was surely glad that I was in his life to lean on when he needed it. Although it mades me sad that P's friend is hurting, the emotion and sentiment from P made me cry. It was beautiful. I have the rose (it's one of the fabric ones) on my monitor at work so I can look at it all day.

Yesterday I took A for the last time before she starts school. I cannot believe that she is old enough to go to kindy! I picked her up and we went to the local doughnut shop. The one by my junior high school that we used to go to before school. She was facinated that people got up really early to make all those doughnuts.

Then we went to my house and of course we had to make banana bread. Everyone wins with this. She gets 4 little loaves to take home and P & I get a couple of bigger ones to eat. When we were done we went to http://www.spacealiens.com/ for lunch. I could tell that A was tired and I had to kind of bribe her to sit still & eat with the promise of games afterwards. She LOVED the racing game. She's a pretty good driver for only being 5, but ran over her share of things and the game totaled her damages at over $85,000. LOL

When we got home she was whiney. I told her that we needed to lay in bed & watch TV. She yelled at me "BUT I'M NOT TAKING A NAP!" I told her that was fine and to just lay & watch TV. She again yelled, "BUT I'M NOT GOING TO SLEEP!" and promptly fell asleep within 10 minutes.

When she got home she and K left to go to the open house for school. I'm going to miss that little girl that I could take any day to spend time with. But hopefully this will give me time to start taking G for days now.

Camping. More work to get ready that I thought. And P is coming down with a bad cold. We may be camping in the livingroom! LOL

Perma-Grin!

I did it! I left work yesterday and drove (100 miles + round trip) to get to P about lunch time. It wasn't a nice day out, but there is something about driving along those back country roads that is fun and interesting. I passed trailers, semi's, boats, farm equipment and lots of cars.

Want to know the route? It's 1 stop light, 1 stop sign, another stop light and then a T where the road diversts though a little town. Go left then another stop light and stop sign. Continue on until you get to another T and go right. Next street turn left and pass by the southwest end of the lake. Stop just past the railroad tracks and cross the countyroad to the building. It's a little over 50 miles from my parkinglot to his.

I pulled up to the lot and called his cell. He was in the plant and told me he'd call me back. I waited and when he answered I asked what he was doing. He told me that he was walking back from the plant to his office. Then he asked what I was doing and I told him I was waiting for him so we could go to lunch. When he met me up by the office he was shocked. He had a huge grin and it made me feel really good to know that he was happy I came out there.

We had pizze for lunch and went back to the plant. I got safety goggles and a warning about my sandals that showed my toes! Then he showed me the plant. It was really interesting learning how they work and seeing it. And P was proud to show it all to me. He introduced me to the ladies he walks with and some of the other people in the offices by him.

Then we kissed and he went back to work and I went home.

I finally surprized him! *grin*

I'm going to try this again!

Last week I attempted to surprize P. Before he left for his walk one night I asked him how long he was going to be gone. His reply, "30 minutes." So I waited about 10 minutes after he left and followed him. There is a little park just down the road on his route. I waited there, between the buildings, for him. Every so often I'd peek my head out in the shadows to see if he was on his way back.

5 minutes...10 minutes...15 minutes...20 minutes...25 minutes....

Then I decided that I needed to call his cell. He should have been back that way by now and I didn't want him thinking that I just took off from home if he went another way. So I called, "Where are you?" He tells me he's way down in one of the neighborhoods. Then he asks where I am. "Waiting for you," I say. And I explain my attempt at a surprize. He walk/ran back to where I was so we could sit under the stars & talk. But by that time there was someone else who was creeping around the buildings and I got freaked out. Don't they know only I am allowed to creep?

So I'm trying it again today. It's my first day on the new job function and I can leave when I want again. So I plan on leaving before noon and driving out to P's work. It's about 1 hour from my work. Half way there I'm going to call and ask if he wants to meet for lunch.

Wish me luck. For if this one doesn't work out, I'm going to be a little leary of the "good surprize" from now on. LOL

Crap. Crap. Crap!

Damn! I had this long entry typed out and my computer clunked out on me. I guess that's what I get for trying to post from work, huh?

I have socks on...

Socks. And actual closed toed shoes.

It's raining here. Actually it's been raining pretty much non stop for the last 5 days. Not that we didn't need rain the middle of this drought we have been having. It's just that it would have been better if it wasn't so much all at once. I think southeastern parts of the state received over 18 inches in less than 3 days. It's nuts. And it's killed people.

Whatelse? Hmmm Well it's my last week on the job rotation and I can't wait to have my freedom again. I can come and go pretty much when I want (within reason) as long as I'm getting my work done and my hours in. I CAN'T WAIT.

P and I have reservations way north for camping over Labor Day. We're trying to develop a list and plan of attack for what we need. It's been interesting to say the least. I'm a huge planner and relish in making and cross off lists. He's a fly by the seat of your pants guy who would wait until the last minute, but what he needs as he's leaving town. I'm onlying saying that we compliment each other. lol

Oops

So it's the 17th and I'm about 350 minutes over my cell phone plan.

Oops.

Oops to the tune of $160!!!

I think P and I might be talking ALOT on the cell phones. I increased my plan, but it won't take effect until the next billing cycle. On my lunch hour I'm going to stop into the ATT store to see abou buying extra minutes until then. Or I'm pretty much screwed and should just hand ATT my next paycheck.

*sigh*

I don't know what to do...

I'm at such a loss. I don't know how to help P with the seriousness of his Dad's health. He's exhausted today from not sleeping last night. Today he called to say that the hosptial was letting his Dad go. I think P has all these thoughts running through his head and doesn't know how to process them and isn't sure he really wants to process them. Who really wants to think about the progression of a parent's death? And to make matters worse, this will be the second time thta P will have to go through this in less than 15 years and he's only 40. It makes me incredibly sad for him and worried about him.

Totally Random Post

It's been one of those months that seems to fly by.

P's Dad is not doing well. He's in the hospital right now and the doctor says that it's a day by day thing. P's having a hard time with it and a hard time opening up to me to talk about it. I really dislike our culture's attitude that "big boys don't cry" and they have to be strong. Their hurt is just as real and hard as a woman's hurt.

We spent last weekend watching my sister's kids. It was an experience. We found out that their master bedroom window moans in a storm. Although, I was convicinved that someone was in the house when it woke me up at 3:15am. Then P pointed out "Who is going to break into a house to moan?" Uh...ok, you have a point there! And don't tell, but we took advantage of the garden spa tub in their bathroom both nights and let Calgon take us away for a couple of hours. It was w.o.n.d.e.r.f.u.l.

We're going to try to go camping over the Labor Day weekend. All I can say is that I think we may have different ideas of what camping is. Mine being more planned out and prepared. his being byt the seat of your pants, whatever comes along comes. Should be interesting, no?