Last week I went to see the dietitian at the surgery center. I spent an hour talking with her about eating. As it turns out, I know much of what I need to know. I know to keep portions small, eat balanced diet with all the food groups, low fat, protein first... In essence, I have a good base to start out with. Then we talked about what I need to do in the time that I have prior to the surgery. She explained and gave me a 1200 calorie a day meal plan. 1200 calories. When you think about it, 1200 calories is sufficient to live. And there are many days that I eat around 1200 calories. However, it's not always a balanced 1200 calorie day. And example of the plan is that for lunch I would get 1 ounce of lean protein, 1 cup of green beans, 1 ounce of cheese, 1/2 banana and water.
1 ounce of protein. It's not much. About the size of half of a small deck of cards.
I walked away from that appointment and gave the meal plan a try for 2 days. Eating that way only got me to about 600 calories the first day and 800 calories the second. That's not even enough to sustain me. I was hungry All.The.Time. And while I need to lose weight and limit my calories, I also don't want my body in starvation mode, clinging to every calorie I consume.
So I went back to eating the way that I was eating before. Clean eating with the fewest amount of processed foods I can. Lean protein at about 4-5 ounces for lunch & dinner. Lots of fresh veggies at lunch & dinner. Lower carbs, but whole grain or multigrain carbs. Lots of water (75-100 oz). When going out to eat, make healthier choices, halve your portions and limit sweets/alcohol.
I didn't work out this weekend, but I stayed busy the entire time. Wrapping presents, running to and from stores, walking with Pete. We went out to eat twice. The first time I shared an entree with Pete - sirloin with mixed veggies of zucchini, squash, carrot, onion and peppers and mashed potatoes. Prior to the meal I ordered a salad with no dressing. The salad filled me up and I ate less of the meal and when I did I concentrated on the veggies and the meat. The second time we went out to an Italian place for my Mom's birthday. Again I had a salad of beats and arugula and that helped to fill me up first. Then I ordered a half portion of pasta and ate about 3/4 of it. I still felt indulgent both times, but made better choices.
This morning I got up at 4:30 am to get ready to hit the gym when it opened at 5 am. I weighed 231. This is the lowest I've been since high school/college. And I don't feel like I've done anything different in the last 2 weeks to lose weight. But I feel like I am starting to believe in my body. As though it knows what I have to do and is helping me along the way. I went, overjoyed, to the gym and pumped out 30 minutes on that treadmill. No stopping when my left foot started hurt, but pushing through the pain and reaching the mental goal I set. And again my body got me through it.
I believe in my body.