No Words

I think my bloging voice is lost.  At times there are things that I think about writing.  Then I realize that it's more about life thatn weight loss.  And I dimiss it.  I'm still struggling with going to the gym.  I feel a huge breakdown the minute I step into the building and I don't want that.  I'm afraid that my feet will hurt on the treadmill like they do when I try to walk outside.  I'm afraid that I've lost everything that I worked for.  I'm just pure afraid.  I have my lung specialist appointment on 11/28/11.  I keep thinking....hold on until then....you can do it.  Right?