the best of intentions

It's never ever been my intention to hurt someone. Although I suppose few people set out to hurt someone. Especially someone they love. Mine is an issue that keeps coming back up and although I try to change, for some reason it doesn't stick. Like they usually do, things get better for a while and then slip back into nothingness and the hurt returns. I'm sure the hurt compounds each time this happens. Today, the words just struck me - I'm knowingly hurting someone I love. Knowingly. How horrible is that? So along with my changes in health and gym and eating, I need to change this. I need to stop knowingly hurting. There is no excuse.