204.6; My ONEDERLAND Reward

Do you watch Biggest Loser?  If you do, you know what onederland is.  Onederland is that day when you step on the scale and you are no longer in the two hundreds.  The day that your weight dips below 200 pounds.  It's always a celebration for the women on Biggest Loser.

This is my SparkPeople app on my iPhone.  It's where I keep track of my weight daily.  As you can see, there is a definite downward trend, which is a good thing.  You may also see on that little chart that I'm getting closer and closer to 200.  And closer and closer to ONEDERLAND!  I haven't seen a 1 on the scale since college.

When I've reached ONEDERLAND and stayed there for at least a week I have a reward planned. 

Rose Compass

A tattoo.  My ONEDERLAND tattoo is going to be a red heart on the inside of my ring finger.  Pete had a wedding band tattoo'd on his ring finger last summer and I'd like something too.  But unlike Pete, I'm waiting my tattoos to be personal and only show them when I want to.  I also have clients who have boundary issues and I'm not going to parade tattoos in front of them to get questions about them.  I'm both excited and scared!

The rose compass up there?  It means a lot to me.  It's used or was used in sailing to tell the direction of the ship.  My journey through life certainly hasn't been a straightforward one.  In fact, It's taken turns and spins and falls everywhere.  I believe that my internal compass kept me on the path that I needed to go, not the path I necessarily wanted to go.  I also believe that my compass will not lead me wrongly and get me not only to where I am going, but back home safe and sound. 

So for my goal weight reward, I'm going to get the rose compass tattoo'd on the outside of my leg, just above my ankle.  I still have time to think about this one and I want to modify it slightly and add a small saying with it.  I wear a ring daily that has "Michelle + Pete 9/26/08" to remind me of our wedding.  I wear another ring that says "Don't Postpone Joy" in honor of a friend who is no longer living.  I want to find a saying about enjoying the journey I'm taking.

So do you have any rewards planned for anything you're trying to accomplish in life?

My Guy

Have I told you lately how great my guy is? There are times when I'm on the back of the motorcycle going down the road that I hug him and whisper how much I love him. I wonder at the ability of two people to find love and keep love and be in love. Not just be. He is my world and I can't imagine it without him.

Back to his greatness. He bought me a beautiful engagement ring. I love the thought that he put into it and all the questions and information that he gathered from me without me knowing. I love it. We went this week to see about custom making a ban or bands to go with it for the wedding. It's not that I needed more jewelry. It's that I wanted something to signify that I wasn't just an engaged person I was a married person. Does that make sense?

When we got to the shop I expressed how much I love the ring I had and how the gallery was important to me. The woman there showed how you can have a ring made to slip in the underneath of the center of my ring. Such that it doesn't show on the side of the gallery, but adds diamons and another small band to the shank of the ring.

That was it. Really IT. She wrote it up and sent it off for an eztimate. And I waited. When the store called they called with an estimate for one side of the band only. We had asked about both sides so they called for another estimate. It wasn't double, but a little over half as much as the inital estimate. My heart sank a little. Then I felt guilty. I was being way to demanding and greedy. Greedy.

So I called Pete and told him about the estimate and he asked me what I wanted. I told him that he felt guilt for asking for both sides, but he told me to order it. To make me happy.

Have I told you lately how much I love him. How wonderful he is to me?

I love him.

I had a scare

We have been running a lot lately. I say this as it's important. It's also importantl to realize that everyone has patterns that they follow as a guide to everyday life.

Anyway, we have been running a lot. We get home from work and leave again. Whether it's on the bike or in the car depends on the weather. But we head to stores to run errands, to Pete's sister about the house/estate, to pastor meetings, to the Harley dealer. We run.

Yesterday we got home and left again. This time to the Harley Owners Group meeting. Dinner at a restaurant. We got there and it was a lot going on. I was a little uncomfortable as I am with any group until I figure out my place. We had dinner, listend to the meeting and signed up for some rides.

Afterwards we rode home in the rain. And I loved my first drizzly rainy ride. We cleaned up the accumulated junk in the garage and I headed upstairs. I went to wash clothes & noted that we need laundry soap. So I took off my jewlery, took out my contacts and got ready for bed. During that time, Pete was upset about his broken bluetooth earpiece and asking me to do things for him.

We got settled in bed and talked. This is the best part of the day when we connect over silly to serious stuff, just the two of us. In the middle of the discussion I told him to get up. He didn't and I told him to get up again. He asked why and I told him my ring was gone.

We got up and tore apart the bedroom and I started crying. I kept thinking about where I would have lost it and how I should have gotten it sized smaller with the weight I lost. Then I was upset that I could lose it without even knowing it. Pete told me to calm down and we'd figure it out. After about 20 minutes of looking and me crying, Pete told me not to worry about it. But I did.

In the midst of this he was telling me to walk through my night. Then it came to me. I looked in my jewlery box and there it was with all the rest of my jewelry. I have never been so relieved. Pete asked me what I'd do if we didn't find it and I told him I'd be really sad. he told me we could just get another one and I told him that it would never be there same. That this is the one he gave me and I never want to lose it.