I need a plan

I've been thinking over the last few days.  I need a plan. You see Pete is challenged by 'beating' himself.  Not hitting himself, but beating his last workout or his last weight loss or his last calorie burn.  I don't seem to have that in me.  But I am a planner.  I like to plan things out and know how and when things are going to happen.

SO!  I need a plan.

Second step of this pre-plan is that I need to remember what worked for me in the past.  What I was doing when I was successful.  One thing I do know is that I liked having a calendar on my closet wall telling me what I needed to be doing each day.  So for now, until I can figure out what else worked for me, I'm going to do the calendar.

It's not that I'm not going to work out this week.  Not at all.  But the grand plan starts Monday. 

The Wedding

I feel like that word should have the music behind it that plays when a character in a movie is killed and everyone is trying to figure out who the killer is. Wedding...dum DA dum!

I've come to the conclusion that my parents are not going to be happy participants of this process. And while it hurts, I'm not going to lie, I need to move on. I probably think about this wedding at least once a day. When the thought enters my mind, I rush it away with other thoughts so that it's a fleeting second and not hours of my day.

Last night I finally said to Pete, "So what do you want to do about getting married?" And he responded with what he always does - it's up to me. I think if he had his way we'd go off somewhere to marry alone. And while the thought is entertaining, it's not what I've dreamed of. And if I'm only doing this once, I'd like to come close to the dream.

So I think the plan is that we're having a 6:45pmish ceremony at the ampitheater at Centennial Lakes and then a reception in the Centrum Building . I've checked out some catering sites and think that we can do an appetizer buffet for a small amount, get a cake and have the beverage service that it there for a reasonable amount.

I want it to be simple and classic.

I've been thinking about color schemes and my creative mind is in a bundle here. Both Pete and I love the color blue. But I don't know that it is what I want in a wedding. My sister had blue and we were just at a wedding this time last year with blues. I'm thinking raspberry pink, fushia, orange and reds. Kind of like a sunset scheme since we're marring at dusk. I've got some sites and items saved that I want to show Pete and see what he says.

Then I guess I need to formally ask my sister to be my matron of honor and see if she'll go shopping with me for a dress. Instead of me picking out a dress for her, I'm going to let her pic out the dress she wants that somewhat coordinates with my dress in a color from the scheme.

And now my creative brain wonders just how to get the supplies needed to make invites! This makes me smile. Something creative to do. I thinkI'm craving that again. Craving the creative things to take my mind off everything else.

Pete's Bucket List

Firstly, you may be a redneck if you watched the lunar eclipse from your bedroom floor through the scope of an AK-19 rifle. lol

We crossed something off Pete's Bucket List this week. He's never seen a lunar eclipse. Actually never seen any eclipse. So we did away with watching American Idol (guilty pleasure) and decided to watch the eclipse. It was hard to see with the naked eye so Pete got out some rifles with scopes on them. We layed on the bedroom floor and watched teh eclipse through the scopes.

For once, we crossed something off his list that I had done, but he had not!

5 Things

I see lists all the time in blogs and somewhat see it as an "easy entry". However this list that was posted on a message board took some thought and time to complete. I thought it appropriate for blogging. I really tried to complete it quickly with the first things that come to mind. And it somewhat reminds me of the Bucket List in that it makes you think about what is important to you.

Fascinate me:
1. 1960's era. The politics, the culture, the feeling, the events...
2. The ocean. Powerful, relaxing, beautiful all in one.
3. A child's mind. It's amazing how they think.
4. Pete. The man has lived and travelled in so many places. His youth was so different from mine.
5. Reality shows. Why would people go on them? What things do they do on them that they wouldn't? All of it.

Inspire me
1. My Grandma. The work ethic and ethic in gerneral for life makes me want to reach higher.
2. My niece. Seeing the world through her eyes makes me want to forget the big picture and focus on the little things that make me happy.
3. Food network. LOL I love to cook. And watching it makes me think about quitting this life and becoming a chef.
4. The sun. The brightness, the warmth, the way it colors the world around me makes me inspired to be nicer to nature.
5. Jon Bon Jovi. *giggle* I look at him and how he went from nothing to rock str, philanthapist, businessman, family man, friend. It makes me want to be more like him

Anger me
1. Child abuse.
2. Criminals who continue to revolve in the system.
3. Cancer. I HATE it.
4. People who are inconsiderate drivers. Your stupidity shouldn't put me at risk for a crash...
5. The government. It's a love/hate thing.

Confuse me
1. The buraucracy of government. How did we lose the simple idea of get it done to all that crap in the legislature?
2. Sokodu puzzles.
3. How a computer works (no matter how many times Pete explains all the workings...)
4. How people full of themselves cannot see that they are full of themselves.
5. Making Lebkuchen for Christmas! LOL

Delight me
1. A child's laughter.
2. Seeing Pete's smile at me.
3. Feeling the warm sun on my face.
4. Gooey chocolate cake.
5. A cold diet dr pepper on a hot day.

Amaze me
1. The vastness of the world that I have never seen.
2. That my parents lived through the turbulent 60's. That my Grandparents lived through the Great Depression.
3. That I am an adult.
4. How I can connect with people on the internet that I have never met.
5. True Love.

Sadden me
1. Child abuse.
2. Crime in general. The revolving criminal that is wasting a life.3
. Couples who cannot have children, despite years of trying.
4. The thought that I may not have children of my own.
5. The thought of losing my parents.

Fulfill me
1. My love for Pete.
2. Being creative - cards, scraping, crochet...
3. Reading a good book.
4. Learning something new.
5. Doing a random act of kindness with nothing expected in return.

Frighten me
1. Growing old without having children.
2. Losing my family to death.
3. The what-if's that I regrat doing or not doing.
4. Chemical/nuclear war.
5. Losing control of a vehicle while driving for any reason.

Relax me
1. A bath.
2. Laying in bed next to Pete with my head in his arm.
3. A nice glass of wine and a good meal.
4. A day walking around a museam.
5. The feeling of being loved.

So what are yours?